Today I'm joining in with Lisa-Jo and the gang for 5-minute Friday. It's my first time.
Here's what 5-minute Friday is all about. From Lisa-Jo:
It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.
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This week's prompt: Small
GO.
We meandered about the throngs of parents and kids yesterday, all five of us. Between the forms and the "hello's," the PTA and volunteer opportunities, all those people and so many hallways, I felt a tad overwhelmed. I wanted to duck into the nearest bathroom with those tiny toilets and knee-high sinks and just hide out for a bit.
I feel too small for this next season.
Too small to balance all of the schedules.
Too small to enter the uncomfortable territory of all kids in school and each with his or her own activity.
Too small to make polite chit chat in the bleachers and on the sidelines {the woes of an introvert.}
Too small to be in this place that is still a bit foreign--physically, emotionally, and psychologically.
Pardon the drama but I feel like wee David and his slingshot, about to face the big, scary giant.
And so I remind myself that yes I am small and so not enough. But God is big and so very enough.
It's okay to feel small.
STOP.
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Seriously? My five minutes is up? Clearly, I'm not a speedy writer. And I'm thinking that's why this will be a good exercise to help hone my skills.
And on a totally different note, can I just thank all of you who sent me texts, Facebook messages, blog comments, and e-mails regarding that last post I wrote?
Honestly, I had no idea it would be received that way.
Marriage is a scary thing to discuss because it's the most intimate and personal of all our relationships. I try to write about it in a way that is honest and hopeful but still somewhat private; it's a tightrope to be sure. My husband approved of each and every word I wrote so consider him a co-author.
Anyway, thank you for being so kind in response to a topic that is so vulnerable.
And yes, I know this part put me well over the 5-minute mark but I had to thank you. That doesn't count right?
Great start for your five minutes. Your blog is oh so pretty! I hope you come back and write again and join us on twitter. Look for the #FMFparty
ReplyDeleteHUGS!
Great job and so glad to have you at FMF. I don't write every single week but I do it often.
ReplyDeleteAs a fellow introvert, I can say you will have awkward moments with teachers and parents but it will be just fine! I think you'll find school to be like another part of your family! Good luck in the new year!
Ah, yes. The woes of an introvert. I know them well. My FMF post today was also my first and was sort of a declaration to myself. Me reminding me that, as you stated so perfectly, "Yes I am small and so not enough. But God is big and so very enough." Blessings!
ReplyDeleteWelcome to 5MF :)
ReplyDeleteI used to be an introvert; somehow I blossomed into a chatterbox and ended up marrying an introvert. Go figure!
Thanks for visiting me and I hope to read more about you next week!
Patty
Lovely words and a timely reminder for me! Fall comes with such bluster and busyness that it can seem as a tidal wave of apprehension and uncertainty about how I can meet all these challenges. Thank you for sharing your heart!
ReplyDeleteYou described this well. I remember feeling so small and scared at this stage in my kids' lives too. And during each of their other stages (now ages 24 & 18) Good thing we know Who walks with us, and He's big! :)
ReplyDeleteDeb Weaver
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